I feel as though I have wanted to write a post like this forever, and now I finally can.

If you've been following my blog for the last couple of years you'd know I've been trying & failing and struggling to lose weight. Well. It's happening. 

A few posts ago I said I was joining slimming world, well. Before I joined I'd already lost about 10lbs. Slimming World was my option to lose the last stone and a half. So far I have lost half a stone. I've found the whole slimming world thing a breeze. To be honest, I didn't eat relatively badly anyway, it was all alcohol consumption (and the mcdonalds, endless cheesy chips and dominos pizza). Please nobody judge me for the photo which is about to follow. 

When I first drew the line and decided to really sort myself I read all of the healthy fitness blogs because obviously I was going to have a six pack by Christmas... and then I started walking, miles a day, I kind of enjoyed it - with help from Pokemon of course. All the blogs tell you to take before and after pictures so I did. I thought I'd take weekly photos to see how much weight falls off in a week.. Oh boy was I disappointed. There was no difference at all so I gave up that. Until now. Last weekend I thought I'd give it a go, I got my half stone award from Slimming World and I'd lost around 17lbs in total - maybe more and wow was I surprised. I am literally half the person I used to be. 

I think the worst part is I didn't even think I looked that bad at the time, I was still dressing for someone who was toned. I must have looked like a hot mess. Why didn't anyone ever tell me I was so big? I am so embarrassed. *monkey hands over eyes emoji* 

I obviously still have a long way to go, but I am finally beginning to love my body. I love my little muffin top. My next goal is to meet my goal weight and then start toning up, but that will come in time. 

I wish I'd started sooner, if you want to do something just do it. No-one says it will be east, but it will be worth it. 

Hi all. I know I know, I promised you more, but I have been so bloody busy and I have nothing really to blog about. But I swear I will try better.

I am writing this blog post so full of emotion and current depression, I've just come back from the best 3 days in Worcester where I graduated. Finally. I think it was the few days away that I really needed. I never thought I could love and need bunch of people so much.

It seems like a lifetime ago I moved into halls, which was probably the best experience of my entire life. I cannot stress enough of how much of a good time I had. We lived in one of the smaller blocks and became very close very quickly. Like a little family. It's also the place where I met 3 of the best humans I have ever met. I don't know how I even coped without them before. You never really know anyone until you live with them and I for sure got the best pick of the bunch.
I've met friends over the last three years who have had the biggest impact on me and really shaped me as a person. I'm already experiencing withdrawal symptoms from them.

The last three years have just been one big drunken, crazy, emotional, stressful, ball of fun, which by the end has probably turned out to be the best decision of my life.

People say "you don't know what you got til' it's gone" and this is the truest thing ever said. I will forever hold this place in my heart, the time I was at my most happiest.

This experience has made me life-long friends. A whole new family. It's taught me more about myself than you could ever imagine. I am so proud of myself for achieving what I thought was the impossible. I feel I've proven everybody at home, all the teachers at school, wrong.
Uni taught me that you don't have to be academic to actually become something. I feel I've overcome something I never thought in a million years I would.

Class of 2016. We did it. Congratulations to you all.
xoxo 

I'm a massive musical theatre geek, there have been multiple times where I've been sitting with my friends with my iPod on where it has gone from Catfish & The Bottlemen say, straight into the Wicked soundtrack and just like that the party is over.. so a trip to the theatre was definitely on the cards. The day came around on the 10th of September.

I'm probably going to be butchered for this but I have never seen Ghost the film.. I don't like Patrick Swayze. Don't ask me why, I just don't, so I had absolutely no idea what to expect, really. I'd read the synopsis so I kind of had an idea as to what was going on. I'd also read some reviews and heard other peoples opinions so it was fair to say I was expecting the worst thing ever, basically. I'd heard and read terrible, terrible things. But I like to keep an open mind, I  didn't want to judge something based on the opinion of everybody else. 

The musical is based on the 90's film with Demi Moore and Patrick Swayze as Molly & Sam. Sam basically gets murdered and comes to life as a ghost - trapped between life and death - he manages find out that his girlfriend is in danger but cannot tell her as she can't hear or see him. Sam meets Oda May who is a medium, she ends up being the only one who can hear Sam and manages to end up helping Molly.

Andy Moss' performance of Sam Wheat in this production was truley remarkable, he touched all the right emotions of the character, something I was pleasantly surprised by this because I'd only ever seen him in Hollyoaks, it's fair to say I wasn't expecting much. The man touched my heart and plenty of others who were sobbing in the audience. 

For me Jacqui Dubois completely stole the show. Her character was hilarious and she did it so much justice. I thought she was incredible. 

I suppose we should speak of Sarah Harding's performance. I'd read the most terrible things, Awful things. Borderline bullying. Her performance was ok, it was better than I was expecting and hearing. There were some pitching problems, but I read she was ill so maybe, I don't know, but maybe that played a part. Her acting in it was absolutely tremendous and very convincing. Hats off to ya, girl.

 The show itself was very convincing and I thoroughly enjoyed it, for someone who had never seen Ghost it definitely made me want to watch the film as I now know it's not terrible. It's running for quite a while, I'm debating whether to see it again, maybe there will be a change up in some of the cast...

Wow, can you believe we are in September? I really wanted to write a post on this season but I had no idea so I stole a lot of inspiration from one of my favourite bloggers, Jess, please find her here
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't looking forward to the cosy nights and leaves falling from the trees - I am ready.
Such a strange season this time as it's the first September in which I can remember where I have nothing to go back to, no school, no college, no university. It hasn't really sunk in yet that in a few weeks I won't be returning to Worcester.
I started a new job a couple of weeks ago and so far I am really enjoying it, I feel I've almost got the hang of everything, I'm absolutely petrified of doing anything wrong which probably helps and everyone is really nice too which helps get me through the 9-6 day. This means I'll now have money to create (for once) some exciting blog posts for you.

Opening this chapter in my life has given me a chance to reinvent myself as I am now more than just a boozy student who is barely scraping by. As you all know over recent years I've had a bit of a struggle with my weight and as of next week I will be joining Slimming World. For me it's not just about losing weight it's just becoming healthier in general. I'm so excited to start this as I've wanted to raise my game for quite a while.
Moving back home has been quite a weird experience. If you've read my previous blogposts you'll be aware I don't have as many friends as I used to, I'm a self-confessed loner and I've kind of got used to it. In my village I'm very happy with the three friends I have, if I want to see anyone from college then it costs me a bus journey which is fine now that I'm working. But in the evenings it's generally just me on my lonesome which you kind of get used to, but it is lonely.  It also turns out everyone's super busy in their adult lives (which I never am) and everything has to be planned and I'm a spontaneous little bean so it's very impatient for me.
I'm going back to basics and doing what I love, I'm considering joining an amateur dramatics society. I really miss being up on a stage and singing and dancing and the pressure of it all more than anything. It was so weird being at university and never acting in a proper hi-tec show with the lights and the razzle dazzle like we did at college and that is something I miss more than anything.
September is my New Year. There are so many fresh and fun things happening, what's yours?