I know there are (hopefully) many people in the same position as I at this moment in time. I have just over three months of university left. Obviously this is quite a daunting time for everyone. Here is another guide (I've decided I really love writing these) from me to you to help get you through your third year.

Sunday's are usually the most depressing day of the week, right? I'm sure there are plenty of people out there nursing hangovers from wild Saturday nights, being slumped in deep depression with the realisation that you must return tomorrow. But what can be worse than Sunday's? Sunday's which feature in January. January has been named the "Monday of all months." - Personally I feel this is completely unfair, it never chose this life. Yet, it appears so true. There's nothing worse than leaving your house in the morning and it still being dark outside and returning home with the same darkness. Everyone's in debt and depressed from Christmas so having fun is no option.

Though it doesn't have to be this way, here is a little guide, from me to you, some ways in which we can make January the Friday of all months (maybe this is too optimistic?). Together we can get through this, to beat our Winter Blues!

 NEW YEAR NEW ME

January is the one month you can have sort of a fresh start. Whether that's being Dry January or becoming more organised, or start going to the gym. You can leave everything which happened in the year before in the past. This is your month, the month you get to reinvent yourself, you can come out on top being as fabulous as ever! It's a chance for you to try out your resolutions before dropping them in coming months.

THE TELEVISION

Since you're all still broke and stuff from Christmas what is better than burrito'ing up in your duvet and watching the new series of Pretty Little Liars on a dark night? Also, everyone knows that the awful shows which you hate to love are going to make a reappearance in your life and you love it - you know your Saturday nights will once again be complete with Take Me Out. I know none of this beats the Christmas films and shows which we all know and love, but it's better than nothing. 

COMFY

This is the month you are still allowed to be comfortable. Wear those joggers and jumpers with pride, pop on your fluffiest socks, order yourself the Domino's winter survival deal (just for one night only, the diet can be put on hold). Grab alllll the blankets and curl up with a nice mug of tea! No-one will judge your for being a slob, trust me, we're all doing it.

SUMMER LOVING

January is the month where we can all start planning our summer holidays - how exciting! It's normally around this time we all start finding cheap deals and putting our heart and souls into planning. It's the month where many festivals announce headliners and we all start deciding which ones we'll be attending. This gives you something to look forward too, it'll come round faster than you think.

WINTER SCENES

The snow is setting, the frost is too, this is the time of year everyone becomes a photographer. You take photos which unintentionally become Instagram worthy. It's also the time of year which I love going on walks, find yourself a park or a river, get your wellies and boots on and get yourself a good smacking of fresh air and obviously an opportunity to go and have a drink on the way home...

BRIGHT UP YOUR LIFE

Winter was created for grey right? And darkness? Well who says it has to be this way? Wear your brightest clothes, paint your nails crazy colours. Go against the crowd. This is probably the best time to stand out. Embrace the colour.

It's ok everyone, the worst is nearly over, please share ways to beat the blues...

"This isn't real, you know what it is? It's St. Elmo's Fire. Electric flashes of light which would appear in dark skies out of nowhere. Sailors were guided entire journeys by it. But the joke was on them, there was no fire. There wasn't even a St. Elmo. They made it up. They made it up because they thought that they needed it to keep them going when things got tough, just like you're making all this up. We're all going through this, it's our time on the edge."- Rob Lowe, St. Elmos Fire. (1985)
We've all been there, right? The sudden feeling that don't belong. A feeling of others taking your place. A feeling that all of a sudden, you are old.

This is something which I am currently very in touch with. 

I first noticed this in the summer of 2015, myself and my friends from college went back there to watch a performance by the class who were in their second year. It all got a bit strange, partly because only half of them knew us. All of a sudden we were being treated as though we were members of the public, we had no privileges like we did the year before. We then went to the nightclub, which we attended every week and no-one was there who we knew, the layout was different, the music was different. We all felt a bit awkward and out of place.

I like to call this the "St. Elmo's" effect. I don't know if anyone has ever seen the 80s film St Elmo's Fire (which if you haven't I highly suggest you do because it is the best film ever to have been created) then this is where I got the idea from. It's a film about a group of friends who, to say the lease, are struggling to come to terms with leaving their college lives and how they're trying to cope with keeping jobs, friendships and relationship. There's a scene in the film where two of the friends from the group peer in the window of the Bar - St Elmo's Bar - to see their friend on the table which they would always sit at with all his new work friends. They then discuss how they thought they were going to be friends forever, and how forever got a lot shorter. It's not a film to watch if you're on the edge.
I've reached the point now, where when I go home from uni, to the pub, where I'd drink every week and not recognise anyone in there. Not even the staff. This is when my dad asked me "Are you feeling a bit, St. Elmo's? and you know what? That's exactly what it is. I guess I'm feeling it now more than ever because I left school 6 years ago which wasn't really a bother for me because I only had about 3 people to stay in touch with. But then I left college, and went to uni and all of a sudden when we came back - everything had changed. We couldn't meet up in our usual spots because someone else had taken them. We couldn't go to places where we would always go because we felt so out of place. I dread to think how much I'll be hit by the St. Elmo's effect once I leave uni.
Though, there is only one way to beat the St. Elmo's effect - find somewhere new. A new joint. We are yet to find a new joint, I suppose it's hard when you're rarely home...
So if you're ever feeling as though you're living in a past in a world that's quickly moving forward, then just remember, this is your St. Elmo's moment. It's your time on the edge. We're all going through this.

Before things got all uncomfortable...

xoxo

"There's a starman, waiting in the sky. He'd like to come and meet us, but he thinks he'd blow our minds." - RIP David Bowie, a true hero. Someone who's music and fashion had rather a big influence on me in my late teens. I grew up with my dad listening to his music, I definitely wouldn't dress in such an outrageous manor if it wasn't for him. The world has lost one of it's most talented and coolest human beings. Rest In Peace.

Hey guys! 

It is official, I am now old. My 22nd birthday was spent drinking far too much vodka with a side order of terrible dancing. That being said, I think it was my favourite birthday yet.

Last year I wrote how 20 was kind of a really shitty year for me and that I wanted 21 to be everything my life used to be when I was 19, I suppose this is kind of a blog post reviewing the year and things which I may have learnt.. So I started putting silver in the insides of my eyelids again, I started drinking strongbow again.. I suppose I thought if I did the actions of my 19 year old self I would magically become her. 

There I am up there, 19 years old, having a great time doing drama stuff and drinking stuff..
After drinking strongbow and talking to boys who I would speak to when I was 19 and trying to relive my life. I kind of accepted the fact I wasn't going to be getting my life back any time soon and realised I had everything I needed anyway, it was more of just finding myself and I feel I've acheived that this year.

21 was also the year I finally went blonde - more bronde really - after debating it for a good 7 years. It was a risk, I could have completely ruin my hair, it could have gone yellow, ginger heck, it could have even fallen out! But I plucked up the nerve and away I went! 

I attended my first festival without the comfort blanket of my brother, I put a tent up, made a fire, made friends, ate actual food this year, managed to catch all the bands I wanted to AND survived the mental crowds without his help. Amazing.

21 saw my third trip to Disneyland with my housemates. Already looking into my next trip.

Being 21 was probably the second best year of my life, so far.. oh c'mon, nothing's gonna beat 19! Once again I was surrounded by my amazing friends I met at college, also by the three amazing ladies who have been in my life for over ten years now - I think they're gonna be stuck with me, poor sods..