It's no secret of mine that music is probably my first and my biggest love and it's something I feel ridiculously protective over because for me it's very sentimental. I'm going through a time in my life where I don't really know whether I'm coming or going and due to this I'm trying to pick the music I'm listening to very wisely because...
I studied Performing Arts/Drama and Performance for 5 years straight so it's fair to say it sort of runs my life. I know I'm not the only musical theatre freak out there and there is literally nothing better than sitting in a dark room and killing your lungs to Wicked. - Tell me I'm wrong. With this in mind I've managed to put...
Oh whats this? Bloody hell, Beth you've really gone all out with this new layout of yours. Ok. I know, I know I'm a pretty crappy blogger. But as you can see, we've a new layout, which I managed to fit.. All by myself. (Though I have that massive grey/black box which should be at the bottom of the page, if anyone can...
So I've always been a bit of a self confessed geek when it comes to games and cartoons and everything like that. My older brother is massively into games so there was definitely no escaping it when I was younger. I'm actually really into consoles and stuff, despite being ridiculously old school - I'm still playing the Nintendo 64 Super Nintendo so, that...
Recently I've felt the urge to experiment with my hair, I really wanted some crazy colours. Obviously I'm looking for work so I didn't really want anything permenant. I'd seen the Pixie Lott hair paints - they're on offer at the moment £3.99 - and had nothing to lose, considering they're only semi-permenant. I decided to pick the Hawaii colour, a faded blue...
A sentence I am damn sick to death of hearing.
As you're all aware I finished my degree in May and to be honest since then I have been in a little bit of a mess.
To be completely honest I feel lost. I don't know whether I'm coming or going. All the universities my friends attended provided them with the footage and information on how to become an actor and they were given a lot of guidance and they were all signed up to the Spotlight website. Whereas my university didn't even provide me with any footage of me acting so I could create my own showreel. I feel I recieved zero guidance. I went to see a Careers Advisor who basically told me to find friends in the industry and basically use them. I felt so down and depressed because I had no idea how I was going to achieve the goal that I've been working towards for the last five years and I'm good and I enjoy.
The pressure I felt to get a job was absolutely ridiculous, especially since no-one at the university didn't tell us how we could break into the industry we wanted to. I felt that when I left college at 19 I was taught and guided far more into future life. I decided I was going to work in an office/reception type setting and then after 6 months decide whether I was going to go travelling or whatever. I feel I just need a bit more time to decide.
Then came the job interviews. Since leaving uni I feel like I've had a thousand job interviews and not one has been successful. It's left me feeling so down and depressed. I feel like I've completely wasted three years as I feel less employable now than I did in the first place. I am completely stuck in a rut. My main goal is obviously to become a performer and hopefully when I do start earning I can invest a portion of my money into showreels, acting videos and things like that.
SO. Truth be told. I have no plans. I am only 22 and I don't think anyone knows what they really want to do at this age. Unless they're particular lucky or super talented and already have their spot.
I think the pressure on young people is outrageous and it needs to stop.